A new perspective on an old concept

The world feels big.

Big like the desert when you just leave the oasis.

Chaos burns full of entropy

like the skin of my feet

stepping on boiling sand bathed with dry heat.

I cannot bare any more

the details of this reality.

I want to be drowsy and bored

with some soothing fantasy.

But this strong and wild and feverish curiosity

draws me to facts like a scientist.

I don’t even know if I have the capacity

to comprehend its complexity

but I try hard to seek the truth

and exchange it for my beliefs

hoping that the sacrifice will help society.

Does it make sense now, all this anxiety?